Driving on the frozen road
her eyes like melting icicles
she stares
Swirving mechanically
to hit the speed bumps
feeling the passion she never shared
Steering with no direction
her hands tied like knots
she grips the wheel
Increasing her speed
to miss the detours
crying for what she couldn’t feel
Sitting at the crossroads
her heart shattered like glass
she turns right
Sliding down the hill
to reach her destination…
the black waters below…
he was her last thought that night
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Road map torn
my direction gone
Needing more
but it’s been too long
Paths won’t cross
this way again
knowing you won’t let me in
Road block here
barrier there
Everywhere I turn
you never stop and stare
Jumping fences
swimming against the current
My mind deserts me
because my heart thinks you are worth it
So…
Post your signs
beneath my heart
Confuse my mind
tear my world apart
I’m something more
than what you need
so post your signs…
I’ll take heed
Drive into me
with what I’d never say to you
Thrill me
with the things you wouldn’t do
Feel me
in some nightmare at night
Remember
that you gave up this fight
Too many ways
you could have let me know
But when it all came down to this
you just wouldn’t show
The simple answers
that I needed to hear
The car lost control
but you weren’t willing to steer
Please…
Post your signs
beneath my heart
confuse my mind
tear my world apart
I’m something more
than what you need
so post your signs…
I’ll take heed
Crashing head first
flesh and concrete meeting
Hitting the pavement is better
than a love that is fleeting
A regurgitated illusion
of one eternal bliss
That’s all that I am to you
and nothing too precious to miss
Reariew mirror warned
that you never would
Headlights shining in my eyes
I should have left you right where you stood
Screeching onto a bridge
you had crossed before me
Horrifying twists and turns
of what I could not see
Into the cold river below
the heaviness brought me down
Unable to escape
and you were nowhere to be found
Then…
Waiting for the moment
when all was dead and gone
Quietly you stole a glance
at the fading ripple
in the water
left by one
small
sinking
stone…
Shhh…
Slowly walk past the crash site
you won’t recognize me this time
Name and face will trigger no longing…
Memories disappear…
Never forgetting what you can’t remember…
You survive the tragedy…
Walking away forever…
leaving it all behind
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Lie to me for once
and tell me that you love me
otherwise take my heart
tear it into shreds
move on…
there’s nothing to see
Deceive me once again
I’ll believe anything you say
otherwise trade my soul
for something less
love her…
and wish me away
Imprison me one last time
but promise to let me go
otherwise
leave my thoughts drowning in the river
where once
our passion flowed
But
Lie to me once more
and tell me that you still love me
otherwise
know this
that without your love
I will never truly be free
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Crowbar to my heart
you force me to reveal
the words and thoughts I’ve buried deep
so that my soul might heal
Hammer to my mind
you shatter the logic and visions
The pain comes quickly but I suffer so long
with your indecisions
Torch to my eyes
you burn my tears with fire
The dreams drown slowly and hope subsides
weakened by your desire
Knife through my Spirit
you poison the air that I breathe
I gasp and wait for a final whisper
as I watch you turn and leave
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I was standing on the edge
Feeling one last sigh
you unraveled every thread of my soul…
and then you said goodbye
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A dusty empty page
you will always find
For I am no longer allowed
to share what is on my mind
You cannot faithfully read
what lies deeply in my heart
and by leaving me behind
you have a brand new start
Pictures pulled down
from the walls they once adorned
They are nothing but targets
for a red hatred scorned
I feel the quiet chill
when I open the door
knowing that you haven’t
been here before
There is no way to know
no trusting place to hide
A dangerous risk in itself
to try to secretly confide
Convinced my heart to believe
that perhaps, I am still missed
Still I’ve turned to ashes
just as she wished
Writing until my hands bled
created only for you
Knowing all was never read
whispering from hidden views
Blind is your perception
lost are my thoughts to your heart
Your arms a cold reception
to a home unvisited and dark
I go to places and you are aware
of what I am longing to know
but you shut the door before I can speak
and remind me that it’s time to go
and…
Your ink has run dry
this I know and see
Have you nothing to say
do you feel anything for me
Passion turned to lies
promise to my tears
A beautiful, comforting, loving place
now filled with endless fears
Once here a blissful dream
for my soul to drink
Now a burned and blackened hole
where my hope continues to sink
My world though shattered by this
as yours is where it remains
and I have too many questions for you…
to write on this empty page
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You can’t feel my pain
I’m breaking down tonight
And you don’t taste the salty stab
of every tear that I cry
I speak to you through dreams and prose
words written from my heart
But deeper my uncertainty grows
and tears my soul apart
I knew if I went searching again
how disappointed I would be to find
Time is erasing my memory
from your forgotten mind
Look into my eyes that you cannot see
the spark is lifeless and dull
Hidden hopes and empty dreams
are starting to take their toll
I will always feel that searing pain that runs deep
when the shattering thunder meets the soft rain
But my heart will no longer be hoping to see
if you will ever return again
Please close the door gently on me
what it seemed to me was not what it was
A charred and burned ending is all that I am
another one lost but never loved
I won’t leave anymore letters lying around
time to find a place warm and new
They will stay on this table never to be found
a reflection and memory…
of my true love for you
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Alone you will always find me
hiding in my mind
The dreams and confusion have taken my soul
there’s nothing left to find
Fears ripped into my sanity
stealing my hope away
You left me buried underneath my hurt
and that is where I’ll stay
Never did you love me
forever was not real
Memories are now shadows of sadness
my heart will always feel
Leave me here behind you
crying eternally
I’ve left myself alone inside
where you will never be
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A battle rages on
inside of a broken soul
Thoughts and empty promises
never to be told
Why did she run so far
when she had the strength to fight
Darkness stole her courage
and extinguished her loving light
Take this blade before you
and stab it into her eyes
She would rather stumble blindly
then stare backwards on the lies
Tie her wrists together
break her bones and will
To leave her is to betray her
it will give you such a thrill
Walk away you clever one
never look behind
You will sicken at the sight
pure destruction you will find
Turn your head you pathetic beast
leave her on the ground
She mourns for your lifeless touch no more
and she welcomes the hell she’s found
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hurt me deeper with your lies
take me under ingore my cries
suffocate my fragile trust
do it quickly if you must
keep me up for days on end
forget to write then press unsend
hate me loathe me you don’t care
I do close my eyes and you aren’t there
drag my hope upon the ground
list me where I can’t be found
run from everything I say
you never loved me…
you never wanted me…
you do not miss me…
in any way
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